Why Whispering Dragonfly...?

When Geoff and I would lay in bed at night, when the kids were tucked in their beds.  We would laugh and cry and talk to each other about those scary questions many are afraid to ask?  Like are you scared? Where do you think you will go?  Does God let you came back and let us know you are safe?  How would I know it was you?  Geoff said he was scared and was afraid of the unknown.  He was afraid of suffering and being in pain.  He didn't want to die alone, he wanted his family and friends gathered.  He got to call all of the shots it was his life and he had a right to decide his final wishes.  He chose to be cremated, he had his own ideas about being in the ground and that is to be respected.  He wanted his rightfully earned military color guards to attend.  He would often say if he could he would come back as a "Dragonfly", why?  He said human life could be overrated and difficult at best, as a Dragonfly he could flit about and check on us.  Since his passing Dragonfly's have played an amazing part in our lives.  From showing up in the cold winter, to swarming our home in the spring to landing on me out in the middle of a lake.  We call our home "Dragonfly Manor".  It is comforting to see them soar and it feels as though a part of him is with us always.  Secondly, Whispering Dragonfly?  Whispering is because of his wanting the Military to be a part of his Memorial.  When the Color guard folds the flag and they bend over to hand it to you, they wait for you to release them by your salute. They also whisper in your ear.  That whisper stays with you always, they tell you "On behalf of the United States Navy and the President of the United States we are grateful to the service of your husband; Lt. Commander Pauly."  So there you go "Whispering Dragonfly". Strangely just shortly after his passing Kevin Costner played in the movie "Dragonfly"...it made me smile and cry, still one of my all time favorite films. Hara on her 18th birthday had a remarkable Dragonfly tattoo in his memory put on her shoulder.

*Glittter makes me smile, it reminds me of the beauty that floats about carlessly through the air.

**On the days before Geoff''s peaceful transiton from earth; the wind blew gently like the tropical tradewinds of Hawaii.  We spent the summer months in Maui, just before we lost the battle.  There we would sit, watch the tide roll in,  saying goodnight to the sun. Watching the crimson curtain as it drifted into evening. Those gentle breezes were like a warm sugar cookies and a kiss that lingers.  Days like that are embraced and cherished.