How Long?

It has been a few weeks, but felt like I needed to address this comment from an "Outsider"...

"How long are you gonna ride this pony?"  in reference to the lingering pain I still feel due to Geoff's passing.

I thought long and hard about that comment, and I know it was just calling my attention to live in the present.  I sometimes do recognize that I keep one foot in the past and one in the present.  I feel as if I am betraying the Love I chose, by closing that door.  Honestly, it brings me comfort and peace to remember. 

I mean honestly, If I didn't use the loss as a way to heal and help others, then what was the purpose.  I find that if I open up to those who are traveling down this road it helps to lessen the blow.  I have had the opportunity to meet and connect with people from all over the country that "Get" me. 

So,  my response is as long as I can get my A*# on that Pony, I am gonna ride the heck out of it.  If someone wants me to open those wounds and share, then I will.  Acting as if it never happened is tragic, life is full of experiences, both good and bad.  So, saddle up and Yeeehawwww!